This is my first time doing the blogging thing. I am not sure I am doing this correctly. I would love to blog my thoughts insread of SI. Hope it works out for me and someone out there responds. A
This is my first time doing the blogging thing. I am not sure I am doing this correctly. I would love to blog my thoughts insread of SI. Hope it works out for me and someone out there responds. A
That’s great, you know, getting your thoughts out. I blog on two different websites, including my own, and I also write in journals. It’s a great way to get things out. I’m glad you want to get out there and seek help and all. We’ll be listening!
Just curious, does anyone think that they are BAD? I seem to think that. Even though in reality, I know I am a good person there is a part of me that believes I am bad, and that I will si again and then I will feel bad about myself again. It seems like a vicious cycle that I am unable to completely control on my own. I feel so bad right now because si is in my mind and not leaving even though I am trying to distract myself by writing. It almost seems that when it gets to this point, I have met the point of no return. I need tools for my toolbox. I am just now starting to ask for help and let people know that I si, but noone has offered any advice or anything. I need help but I can’t seem to find it. Can anyone help me out?
Ang7777:
Writing’s a great outlet to distract yourself. No one on Earth is a bad person, I don’t believe that. There is good in everyone, and that’s what I look for. You’re a good person, and you can be strong. You are loved, and you can be helped. There are people who would love to help you, I’m one of them. Things will be okay. Just live for today. Tell yourself that you won’t cut TODAY, and work on it one day at a time. That always works best.
“Today is not the end of the world, because it’s already tomorrow in Australia.” –Jamie Tworkowski.
Still hurting. I was able to find a therapist. I had to let mine go. He got too attatched. Anyway, I realise I have a tremendous amount of anger inside myself. Everytime I go in public places and a certain sex is there, I cringe. My body literally jumps if there is a loud noise. I am so afraid of getting hit. Or being touched. I did si again today. It always makes me feel better for a while. Definately my friend. That’s unfortunate though because I wanted to get better, not worse. I seem to be getting worse. I hope I find help soon. I feel like I could hurt myself worse than I ever have before. I reccognize it is because of the anger. I did make some phone calls today to try and get some help. Recovery from past abuse is very difficult but I would certainly hate to waste all that I have learn by doing something so …so….well, never mind that part. I just hope I get help.
I’ve suffered some similar things…domestic violence and emotional abuse. I’m scared out of my mind of any kind of yelling. But I put that all behind me. Make that phone call. SI is your worst enemy. Keep it away. Make it distant. You can do it. Find a new therapist, but until then, make all the phone calls you possibly can. You honestly can do this, I know you can. It’ll all be okay.
Hi,
Have to say, I made lots of phone calls. I have two therapist to interview next week. You have helped me a lot.You gave me the hope I needed this week. I chose not to do myself in for good, but to pick up the phone instead. Thank you so much. I have been telling everyone how you are helping me. I honestly, never, heard what you are saying I need to do to keep myself safe from myself, etc. I feel so aweful that my therapist lead me on all this time. A therapist today was totally shocked, putting her hand over her face and head, over and over when I was telling her what has transpired. She said I need to report him, but I don’t know if I could do that. He has hurt me more than anyone I have poured my heart out to. I told him about twenty things that I have never ever muttered from my mouth. Every time I close my eyes, all I that goes through my head is, “He hurt me so bad.” I feel so mad and sad. I have never been this mad in my whole life. I am hopeful that you are correct that there are people to help me. Thank you again. A
Ahh! See, it feels so great to be on the recieving end of this. Again, I’m so glad I can help you. I’m very sorry about what happened with your previous therapist, and if it makes you feel better, bring him to justice if that’s necessary. It may relieve you, you never know. I said this to someone, but forgetting our past is not easy, and forgiveness is always tough too, but we just have to tell ourselves that certain things are over, and not allow them to happen to us again. You’re strong, you can move on from all this. I was thinking this just now, but you’d be surprised if you knew how old I was and that I was giving this advice out. Seriously, most people think I know alot for my age. I’m actually 15. I was hoping to remain anonymous, really, but I guess not. I’m glad I can be of help to everyone on here. It’s really great that I can be of service to you. I feel that I’m doing God’s work when I help others, and I really don’t take much credit for it, but it does feel great. Thank you, for letting me help you all out. I take it upon myself to care, and I absolutely love doing so.