i know my problem and i know its bad, ive tried to stop and i went a whole week without S.I. but the thing thats stoping me is that the things i strive for have some negative sides and i just cant handle the effects. i feel like i dont make sense anymore and that im not doing anything with my life, if it wasnt for friends i dont know where i would be, thank God for friends. its interesting how many people where shocked when they realized what i was doing, they kept asking why? and i just told them because i cant do anything right without screwing up, most of them were shocked because im such a happy person and the type of person who makes friends with everyone, but to be honest they dont matter to me, very few people that i know have i deemed friends and ive messed things up for them so many times if it wasnt for my 4 most closest friends who have stuck with me through thick and thin, i dont think id be trying to get help right now
-Brandon
Struggling with the negatives is something we all go through, and it can get bad, but we’ve gotta tough it out. No human being is perfect, ever. We all have to step back once and a while and redeem ourselves, and try and fix what’s broken. And in getting help, you are doing just that. We sometimes struggle to find our commmunities at first, but take your few closest friends as a blessing being given to you. They may not understand where you’re at right now, but that’s okay. You can’t force someone to grasp a concept, you can only offer them some understanding of what you’re going through. As long as they can support you, you’ll be okay. I’ll be praying for you. You are loved, remember that. Take help, be humble, and accept the Lord, and learn to accept your flaws. It will do you great justice.
Keep your faith and your mind positive and strong <3
heyy. i know how you feel. i have friends but i never feel i can actually talk to them about the things that are important. I only have 1 best friend to truth and its great you have 4. Screwing up is a part of life. Everone in the whole worls has screwed up countless times. Its important to be able to just learn from the mistakes and try to do better next time. Im sure you dont screw everything up..its good that you’re trying to stop by not doing it for a week, next time try to no to it for a week and 2 days and so on. i find that the most helpful things to do are talk to people about whats going on, relax and do something to take your mind off whats bothering. good luck : )