Nobody will want to read this. It’s too long. That I do know! 

I’m sitting here alone. In my dinning room. My parents asleep upstairs. They have no idea what I’m going through in my mind. They don’t know their own daughter!

I don’t know what to do. I want to injure so bad. I want to feel the pain.

 I don’t want to complain, but my mom started drinking again and I’m angry! My aunt came over with two 6packs of acohol like 2 weeks ago, and now there’s 3 of the drinks! Why would she do that! She KNOWS I hate her drinking! She went multiple years without drinking! She started again!

 It makes me think that if you’re addicted, you can never stop. I feel that way. Could that be true? Or is that only the thought of somebody who’s lost a battle. Somebody who has no will power? Then, I’m a loser with no will power.

 Nobody will help me. My best friend yells at me. My cousin, well she has her own problems. My mom, she doesn’t take me seriously. My dad, I could never talk to him. EVER.

 I don’t know what to do. I’m typing this aimlessly. Nobody will read this.

 I feel so alone. I want to sleep, but if I go in my room, I’ll injure.  It’s been over a week. Should I really ruin that? No, but I probably will. It’s an addiction. I’m sorry for it.

 I told my best friend and she said, “Wear long sleeves all summer, or get over it.” How could she say that. I don’t really care. I still love her. She’s USUALLY there!