So i havent injured n almost 3 months now. Im wondering tho, is it really recovery when im walking around n a fog of depression? Is it really recovery, when im still obsessed w si? Am i really any better off 4 quitting? Sometimes i think, if i could just do it one more time, i would feel so much better. Maybe it would take away the more dangerous thoughts im having. I no i need 2 make an appointment w my therapist this week, but im afraid 2 cause im afraid that if im really honest about how i feel, shell put me n the hospital. I just dnt no anymore, i should b celibrating recovery not morning it.