I’m so bummed. I have been so strong and doing so well, I havnt even had urges or anything. But now it is all I think about, I havnt given in yet but its so hard. I feel like I’m always at a mental battle with myself. Why do these thoughts have to consume me? I wish everything is how it was before I ever si-ed when I felt truly happy. Now all I ever feel is down, neutral, or numb… I miss that happy high feeling :(.
I’m going to my doctor on friday though so hopefully she will mix up my meds and help me some more. I’m not a fan of therapy (I just think sitting there talking about your problems with someone you dont really know is kind of awkward) so I tried a healing yoga today hopefully that will start helping if i keep going.
Hopefully with healing yoga the urges will go away again and I can get along with my life. 🙂
Hey blue.tutu. I am so happy to hear that yo haven’t give into those thoughts yet. I know that it is very hard to not given. I used to have the smae problem after I recovered. And yeah therapy can get awkward, but it actually can help if you really open up, but if you ever feel like it is too weird to talk to someone who has no idea what you are going htrough feel free to email me anytime. My email is dashdollie10@yahoo.com. ANd yeah keep up with the yoga. Yoga is a very healing process and I have herad it works. Stay strong and don’t feel bad if you fall the road to recovery is never easy, but that is why you are here to get support.
Peace love life,
Melody
i have to agree that it is kinna awkward to tal to some one you dont know and tell them all your problems… i feel selfconcious when i have to talk about mine… its good that you are trying someting… an maybe your doc can help you…
P.S. if you need any one to takl to i can talk w/you…
Yoga has been helpful beyond measure for me. Relying on yoga -other than the occasional small slip up- I went 8 years without si. I find it so so so powerful in keeping me even keeled. And now that I’m struggling again I can see how powerful all the skills of concentration and breath are for me to get through this. I wish you all the luck.
^^^ thanks everyone.
my doc appt went well and i still havnt given in making it i think a month and a week today since my last slip up, which is really good for me. i am loving yoga so far and recommend it to anyone else who is having trouble with all this stuff. 🙂 have a good day everyone. if anyone ever needs to talk or vent my email is blue.tutu@hotmail.com