hey all..

so im new here. but with much in common with everyone.

ive been struggling with SI for a long time. and i finally reached several weeks of going with out it. but lately.. ive had the increasing urge to do it all over again and to throw all ive worked for away.. im so confused by it. i was so proud of myself.. and went several days without thinking about it. and the last week or so ive been a mess and cant stop thinking about it.. any advice?