Sometimes I wonder where in the heck I am going? Why don’t I just self-injure everyday when I won’t be checked? Right now my injuring is limited right now to the point I self-injure a fraction of what I used to. I can’t say I am getting better, because I am not, and part of me doesn’t want to.   I still have yet to figure out why I even injure. Why is it that I have continued to injure myself for more than 1/4th of my life. I am 16 and I have self-injured for about 5 years. Why is it that I keep doing this to myself? Why is it that I hate it more than words can say, but love it more than anything else? I don’t understand and I am so freaken confussed.