As you can tell this is my first blog and Im a bit nervus, I have been self harming for 2 years and I have scars in many places.  I think I could stop, but the thing is i dont want to. I love the control it gives me. My therapist told me that if the injuring gets any worse he’s going to hospitilize me, that is like a nightmare for me. I am a germ freak. I even had a dream, that i was put into the hospital and straped down to the bed. They had to give me meds to calm down because I was freaking out about the straps being used on other people who could have been dirty….