After two years of being SH free, I did it again. I worked so hard to get my family and my life back together after the last time, but I guess it’s a process and we all have to find out way through. Anyway, my family and friends have been really supportive at a time when I feel I am going all over the place, but I feel bad telling them I still feel like SIing. I don’t think I will do it, all that leads to is pain and disappointment and getting farther away from everything I want. But the impulses are still really strong, and I feel monstrous for wanting to SI again after all my parents, friends, and I have been through in the past couple of weeks to try and get me better and on the track to being healthy again. I feel like something is wrong with me, and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s easy enough to reach out to one’s support system, but what do you do about fixing the problem inside yourself?