I dont know what to do anymore. I feel soo stuck and theres no way out. I honestly dont believe I matter to this world, I look in the mirror and cant even look myself in the eyes, I do not know this person I’ve become. It always hurts soo much and It just never stops, I didnt think it was possible to cry soo much. My heart just hurts and I used to have some of those happy little moments, moments I loved but there getting less and less and I dont see that changing. Nothing matters, not family friends or myself everyones fake no one honestly cares people a selfish and their only concern is themselves. I just wish someone could ask me are you really okay, I want someone to actually care just let me cry, and let me release this baggage. I want some help?
I feel the way you do every moment of every day lately but we can’t give up hope ….things got better for me for a long time and then I screwed every thing up and lost almost every one in my life I lost my job my home my friends I had to move in with my abusive parents again at age 44 I cant believe this is all there is …I si again I cry I hide in my room I do all I did but I know i got free once and it was better ..it will get better it has to….I just wanted you to know your not alone ….and Im here if you need some one ….