Hello there! Where to start.. Well. I haven’t posted on here in quite some time, but I felt the need to write. You know where you get that feeling? Something tugging at your heart? Thats how I feel. Last June, I attended S.A.F.E alternatives for teens in Dallas. I was there for about 1 month 1/2 or 2 months. What a change in my life that made. But lets back track for a minute. Exactly this time last year, I wanted to die. My life was so messed up, it seemed unfixable. I was so lost and pessimistic, and I had no care for myself. I tried to die. It was a blessing that I didn’t, even though at the time, I saw it as a curse. I went through many more months of suffering and heart ache. Then, I went to S.A.F.E. I wanted to go so badly, for someone to see how much pain I was in and that I didn’t want to be that way anymore. But another part of me hated going, almost despised it. I thought I deserved everything that happened to me. I went into S.A.F.E with an awful attitude. After opening up a little and seeing friends get better and graduate, i thought that maybe just maybe, I could do the same. By the end of my treatment, all the “seniors” were gone and there was only me as a “senior” and all the new people. They would say things like “I want to be like you” or “I hope I can get better like you did.” They looked up to me, which in my mind was crazy. There was no way that anyone could look up to me. It was a wake up call, to see this girls in so much pain were at one point, I couldn’t see, but now I could. I’ve been harm free since August 8th. Who know I could go that long. I went from 3 times a day, to none.  I’m not sure what I’m trying to say with this, or a point I’m trying to make. I guess because this time of year coming around again, reminds me of what it use to be like. And I hate for anyone to feel that way. My goal in this blog was to show you that there is so much hope for you. So much potentional in your life. Although I may not know you, I do know that you are so special and unique. You have a lot to offer, and I love you. Whatever you are going through now, please know that it will pass. It may seem like the end of the world, but I promise it isn’t. You don’t need to hurt yourself, because I see what it is like without self harm, and its a whole new life. I am set free, and I know and pray you will too. Love,ErinIsaiah 59