I’m sitting going crazy because right now I don’t know what’s wrong or right ( I mean I do) it’s just that I’m really sick (Physically) and I’m not really feeling much of anything.  I want to self-injury so bad that I can actually see the end result.  I’m not only feeling numb, but I’m between that rock and hard place in my head and that’s what’s making the next choice to make harder.  I don’t like being sick because if anyone thought that I have anger issues with other things this blinds me with so much anger that ( I know you can’t) I feel like there steam coming out of my ears.  I know all of you on this blog don’t like being sick either I guess what  I’m trying to say is that when I feel sick I feel less than zero and believe me I feel that way to begin with.