WHY i was so close i was doing so well….. Last night i relapsed 2 weeks i was doing so well not happy but well. than i felt it i felt the anger growing inside of me filling me completing me. i tried the steps i counted to ten and took ten deep breaths. i failed why cant i stop why is this so intertwinned with who i am? is it ever going to stop. i was going to tell my GF last night but i couldn’t, I cant  not now. WHEN WILL IT END!!!!!!!!!!!!  Im sry mina i let you down but dont quite dont give in keep hanging in there.