Hello, all! I want to let you know that I have been praying for anyone and everyone on this site. I have done a lot of thinking this week, and here are my conclusions:

  1. No matter what we think, there is always a way out of SI. Even if it seems as if there is no hope, and the only way to get out of our current situation is to SI, that is NOT TRUE. I know that I have thought that on many occasions, but I have learned this week that no matter what, there is another way to deal with things. And isn’t that what we all want?
  2. If we dwell on our mistakes in the past or one’s we are currently making, this will ultimately lead to our own demise. If you continuously beat yourself up for the things you do, you are pretty much digging your own grave. We have to forget all of this and learn to love ourselves, or we can all kiss TRUE recovery goodbye.
  3. We can not do this alone. Whether you are too scared, too mad, too bitter, or too proud, there is no way around telling someone if you truly want recovery. I understand that it is a scary thing, but it’s inevitable. If we continue to bottle up our emotions and put them on the backburner of our lives, there is no way they are ever going to get the attention that they need to recover. SI, eating disorders, depression, and suicide will ALWAYS exist if we don’t let people help us.

These three things are the things I have always struggled with the most. I hope people don’t think I am accusing, I am testifying. I want you all to see what I continuously do wrong so that you don’t have to make the same mistakes I do. These are the three areas of life that I need to work on, and I know that I am not alone in this. That is one thing that I have come to love about this site; everyone is ready to share their own troubles, work with one another, and truly recover. We are all in this together, and I would love to see us all make it out.

Taylor