So I’ve gone a little bit without SI but tonight I just couldn’t handle it. Have you ever felt that you don’t even deserve to quit? That you’re such a disappointment that you don’t even deserve the glory of conquering self injury? That’s basically how I felt. Am I really wasting my time and everyone elses if I don’t even believe in myself? Everyday I think of the people that are trying to get me through this. Aren’t they being hurt more when I give them hope in me quitting and then rip it all away and cave in again? Why is it that there are people that would give the world for me and I can’t even stop hurting myself for them?..

Maybe I’m just not meant to quit…