Okay. So normally I would never find myself doing this. Honesly, I didn’t believe I even had a self injury problem. I thought that it was no big deal; Yeah, I injure myself, so what? It took a serious reality check for me to realize that I needed to stop this. I hurt myself in a few ways.
The day that I found myself “quiting” for around the seventh time, I realized I had a big problem here. I almost felt like when I injured, I was getting back at those who hurt me by hurting myself… I’m hoping that someone can say that they feel the same way. It’s almost that I felt like I could hurt myself more than anyone else could hurt me. That made me feel like I had power over everyone in my life.
I definately have more to say… But this is already very hard for me. I hope someone sees this and talks to me.
Haley,
I understand what you mean. When people would upset me I felt like I was getting back at them by injuring myself because I was hurting myself, but you have to realize that you aren’t them and you shouldn’t care. People are always going to hurt you, you just have to find the appropriate way to deal with your feelings.
If you want to talk to me, please email me! I’d love to talk to you. I need support to, so we can help each other! I will pray for you tonight.
Taylor
Hey i completely know how you feel. I’ve done it for that reason too. It’s the sense of power and control. I totaly get it. So you’re not alone. You’re really not. Email me if you wanna talk. gods2weety@yahoo.com
yep been there done that. i only tryed to quite 3 times and i am on the the 3ed. but when i started i was thinking this isn’t a problem how could this be addicting? well it was….so i SI for three months then tried to quite….it didn’t work so well. i started back up not to long after. ok so i know that i will sound like an old lady who has been going to church for like ever but i am just going to say it and i don’t mean to sound like an old lady. this is really what happened. it took God to get me out of it. because of the SI i became a christian. yes i did stop and then start back up while i was a christian but it was really a God thing for me. but i want you to know you there is no way on earth that you are alone…..let me know if you need any thing.