I can not stop thinking about it. I’m really just wanting to do it just to get past it in my head. I don’t even know if that made sense but basically I am completely obsessed with it. I hate that I can’t let this go! My counseling is going so well but I’m just so scared to let this go completely! Its who I am. Without it I have no idea what who I am basically. That sounds so retarded! but its true. its been what I’ve seen myself as for 10 years. Now what!?
You can pass the urge. An unhealthy coping device does not define who you are. If it could, it’s not a very good legacy to leave behind. Think of all you will gain with a healthy life. You can do this and you will feel so much better when you can say it’s behind you. You are too precious to do this to yourself.
Start shoving good thoughts into your head when the bad thoughts start overwhelming you. Positive thoughts/ positive affirmations — they do work and they do scare the bad ones away!
One thing that works for me is to blast positive music through my iPod when the bad thoughts start. I have the headphones in so I don’t bother anyone else and so I can’t hear the outside world very well… then I turn on the inspirational music. I have “recovery songs” that I play for myself and they do help, as long as I use them when I need them.
Self-injury is a choice. You can choose to make the thoughts “take a hike” when they come to mind by replacing them with something else. Fill your mind with better things and other things and healthier things. This does take time and practice, but it works.