well i’ve done pretty good so far. I havent SI’d for a month now but the urge is back again. i’m trying to just find things to take my mind off of it but buying stuff is starting to become harmful too (no money). I do still journal, that works but only a short time. I’m a military veteran, and i know that i could go to the VA hospital. its safe there and they have stuff to do, but I dont know if that is a good idea to go. I dont want to go there and just say i’m thinking about SI-ing…then it looks like i’m just looking for attention or something. I don’t know what to do. should i check myself in or just keep trying to do things on my own?