im new to this…trying to stop. but i just cant seem to. the urge is still there coiled in the back of my head sometimes slient sometimes sweetly talking. im not sure what to do…when i want to S.I it seems like no ones around to save me or im in a place where no one cares. it makes it so hard to focus on thinking that im stronger than the urge. tht i can stop. tht im above it. im not sure what to do. i hav no one to talk to. im afraid tht my friends will turn their backs on me. my parents dnt rlly understand…i feel so lost…like im in the middle of a dark ocean, all alone. sometimes i think i can get out of the water, but i always seem to get sucked back in…..