I have no idea what I am doing right now. One minute I will be confident about my recovery, and the next I will be doubting again. I have been trying to reach out. I have been praying. I have been reading. I have been talking about it and telling on my thoughts. But for some reason this other part of me keeps coming back. It follows me around and every time I am alone it haunts me. The thing is… i crave freedom right now. I just moved back into my parents house because of multiple addiction problems and now that I have 54 days clean, I just want out. I just want to make something of my life. I think I got a glimpse of freedom… and that sparked old habits. I don’t know how to keep going… and I guess I am asking for help.