So, i havent SI’d in a month and ten days. Well sort of. I havent injured, but i am experementing with an ED well i guess experimenting isnt quite the right word, but i dont know how to word this to say what i want to say without being triggering. Hmm i guess ill try and if the moderators change it then thats fine. I have tried to use eating disorder behaviors….but can’t. My sister did that about five years ago and i dont want to make the same mistakes she did. . .
But. .
Im really uncomfortable with myself. Iv tried loosing weight before and i can loose the weight, but i loose my willpower after about two weeks. Im trying again, but i just dont know. 🙁
It’s great that you haven’t injured in your usual way for so long. At SAFE we believe that eating disorders and self injury often go together. When one behavior increases, the other decreases. Have you considered that you might still be self injuring by not nourishing your body? Have you thought about what feelings lead you to want to either injure or use eating disorder behaviors? I just wanted to mention all this to give you something to think about. You deserve to be treated well. You deserve to be supported so that you’re able to express the feelings you’re working so hard to control. Everyone needs support now and then – I hope you’ll keep reaching out for that support, just as you’ve done here today :-).
Take care, Pam
ive done the same thing, thought about ED as a replacement for SI. not a replacement exactly, but like a new obsession to focus on. and id love to lose weight, i really wanna be a size four again. but seriously, its all self destructive. love yourself. please.