So, i havent SI’d in a month and ten days. Well sort of. I havent injured, but i am experementing with an ED well i guess experimenting isnt quite the right word, but i dont know how to word this to say what i want to say without being triggering. Hmm i guess ill try and if the moderators change it then thats fine. I have tried to use eating disorder behaviors….but can’t. My sister did that about five years ago and i dont want to make the same mistakes she did. . .

But. .

Im really uncomfortable with myself. Iv tried loosing weight before and i can loose the weight, but i loose my willpower after about two weeks. Im trying again, but i just dont know. 🙁