Well I need to reach out here as I sent an e-mail to Karen and there has yet to be a response… So I’ll reach out here.
I have been safe since attending the intensive program some 18 months or so ago. Lately I have wanted to bail out of my full time job. I can honestly say I went to hell and back to get this position back in a field I love, and have an education in.
I have had impulses, and urges, all to successfully state that I did not act on. I’m overwhelmed day in and day out by not only personal, but medical and financial issues. Because of the financial issues I have lost a really good T. I have not really sought out another one as being really disappointed. I am definately feeling effects of this long and really cold winter.
My provider (Psy. M.D.) has proscribed meds of which I cannot take due to kidney and blood pressure issues. So I am not on any meds other than the high blood pressure.
Is there anyone out there before I get back to the poing of giving in to something I really don’t want to do again?
If someone can relate. Please post.
Try and focus on therapy, not the meds then. Meds aren’t the answer for everyone… and maybe this is just a chance for you to prove to yourself that self-injury isn’t something *defective* or *fixable* by medicine — for you, it’s fixed by hard work.
It is okay to feel down in the dumps and burned out. Can you take a short vacation or maybe just a few days off and do something for YOU? What about a spiritual retreat or maybe attend a seminar on something you love or enjoy? What about trying to commit a few hours a week to a local service organization, like CASA (child advocacy center) or the library (reading books to kids) or maybe help your community become a little “greener”? Giving just a little bit of yourself to others, in an area that means something to you, can make a big difference in life perspective.
Start out by asking yourself what you do for fun and what you do just for you — if you can’t answer this, then try to answer it and act upon your answers.
You have made it 18months, which is huge! A friend of mine just saw her 2yr mark on Christmas, which I can only dream of seeing 🙂
Reciently I lost a Therapist due to insurance issues, now a doc because he couldn’t prescribe meds for a plethora of reasons. I believe i feel better without the meds. I work in a very stressful position and definately at times notice I’m slipping. Another thing contributing to the crawling back under my rock.