I hate feeling this way. or not feeling that is. I have a hard time identifying my emotions to begin with but then sometimes its like there are none. like I try to figure out what I’m feeling but its nothing but tired, and more nothing. I sort of feel empty, I don’t know.
on a side note I haven’t SI’d in a while, mainly because of my guy friend online. I listen to him for some reason and I guess it helps that I can call him or talk to him whenever I’m crashing, although most times I would rather SI and get it over with than sit on the phone for over 2 hours until he can get me out of it. guess a major reason is because of the guilt, I can’t lie to him. I’m hoping this helps for a while, sort of scared for when it stops working.
hmm anyway, gonna force myself to bed so I dont have to be awake while feeling like this.
I have the same problem. So don’t think you’re alone, cause you’re not. Maybe you can try and write things that are going on down on paper and think about them individually and try and think about how you feel about whatever it is. Try not to focus on everything at once cause then that causes all the emotions to combine or just disappear as you may already know. Just a suggestion.
You are not alone. I like gods2weety’s idea of journaling, but for me what helps is to be around people and just kind of forget my own stuff for a while. When I’m by myself is when the destructive thinking starts :/ It’s great that you’re reaching out, and that you’ve found someone that seems to help you. Sleeping it off helps too, usually I wake up and feel better. Best of luck.