so, i did it again. so much for trying to be good. and i’m trying to get in touch with my one friend who always just listens, he doesn’t try to give advice for what he doesn’t know, but he’s not answering but there’s so much i need to say. i think i wrote this last time but i showed my friend my scars the other day and now she wants me to talk to someone, because she says i’m in too deep and i’m being hypocritical and i don’t know.
i’m just so confused and i don’t know what i want to do anymore and i don’t know what i am and i just want to figure it out because i don’t think i can deal with this anymore and i just don’t know
and the worse thing is that i am being hypocritical. i’m trying to help someone and i can’t even help myself, everything i ever dreamed of is slowly falling apart and i ‘m just not sure how much more of it i can take because i don’t want this
i’m losing my will to live, the promises i made…. its just, i don’t eeven caree. and honestly, i think that should scare me. but it doesn’t
You have some of the right idea, in terms of helping others. We can experience healing when we help others through their trials and tribulations — but we also must be getting help ourselves. It feels good to use our energy to help others feel better, however we must stay at a safe distance so that we don’t “take on” their problems too.
Have you considered volunteer work? This would be a way to give of yourself to others. You would be surprised how much helping others who cannot help themselves will help you too, in addition to helping you put some of the basics of life into perspective.
I totally understand what you mean. And like Cassandra said, you need to not take on other people problems. Not trying to tell you what to do, but I’m the same way. I love helping people. But learning to help the right way will help you and the other person. I would suggest to keep talking to people though and let them know whats going on with you more than you help others. Plus once you get help then you are way much more help to others. I’ve had to learn that the hard way, but it is true.