so my friend, my wonderful nest friend who i love to death, who also struggles with SI, is acting very… fake about it lately. like she told me she was cleaning her room and she found something she used to use to SI, so she tried it to compare. so obviously i was worrying about her a bit last night and what-not, but today, when i saw her in school, she was not even trying to hide her injuries and they were so obvious! it made me wonder if it was just a call for attention. i know she hasn’t done it for attention in the past, shes in too deep to be doing it for attention any more if she was in the first place. but i dont know, this just made me think whos lying to me in this world. whos really having a hard time. its not helping my situation at all, which includes thoughts of… well, ending it. i dont know if i would ever do that. who would care [my answer to that: i counted 5 people who would really care] and i dont really like it… but what i like the least about it is that i dont want to tell my therapist. i dont know why,which is bad. but i dont know what to do about this, about anything any more.
i have been in a similar situation with my best friend. she told me had stop injuring and i found out she was still doing it. i didnt understand why she lied but she wouldnt talk to me. it sound like ur friend is looking for attention, as self harmers are more likely to hide their injuries rather than let others see them. you need to find out why she did this, if its for attention, explain to her that there are positive ways of getting attention from both friends and family instead of self harming.
I agree. Talk to your friend, find out what is going on with her. It does seem unlikely that she is seriously SI’ing again and showing it off. Granted i could be wrong but that is not normal behavior. Just sit down and talk to her. And as for your thoughts of ending it, please don’t. I can garuntee you there are way more than five people who would care if you were gone. I can almost assure you that. It may not seem that way but truely there is and who knows maybe someone out of the blue will show you that there is. But don’t end it without realizing that you are here for a reason, and everything happens for a reason, you will come up from this and be a strong person and find out that there is a reason you are here. So be strong and talk to your friends. And feel free to email me if you do just need a friend, my email is dashdollie10@yahoo.com.
~Melody