im getting deeper and deeper into my depression. Hitting rock bottom and not seeing a way out. I SI’d again. its not helping much anymore like i remember. but enough for now. Too many things going on all at once and I dont know what to do. Ive tried all the healthy things and it doesnt help.. It seems impossible even though i know it isnt. The worst part, by SI’ing i know im hurting the people around me but i feel like i need to do it you know? like if i dont, something bad will happen or w/e?

i dont know.. i feel lost and helpless now.