im constanly thinking about hurting myself its like even though i thought life had meaning it doesnt and i dont want to be apart of something i cant feel i went for a walk the other day there was a storm here and i found myself standing staring at the waves comparing them to life like anything and everthing is linked to meanings of life but i cant find my meaning in life its like im not meant to have one even though ive got everything i need it feels like somethings missing and its a meaning to live