Despite having a wonderful time in the city today with my friend, visiting museums and toy stores and walking in Central Park and freezing our bodies to the core, and despite having sent much needed e-mails to professors, and despite buying gifts for my mother, and despite logging impulse and negative thinking logs, and despite talking to a friend, I feel overwhelmingly bad. I just found out that an incomplete from 2 springs ago was FINALLY submitted and posted and it was the worst grade I have gotten in my college career – my worst grade for the 2nd time! Not only that, I am struggling a lot with body image issues, having just eaten a small bag of candy. And, despite my friend also seeming to have fun with me today, my negative thoughts are flooding my brain and telling me that she didn’t have any fun with me, that she was only pretending, that I’m not smart, that I’m boring to be around…

I am currently filled with anxiety, insecurity, and sadness. I feel almost paralyzed to do anything productive….but I will get ready for bed and maybe do some origami and reading and hopefully I can make it through these SI urges.

Has anyone else had similar feelings/situations?