i don’t know what to do. i si, not bad, but i can’t seem to stop. my best friend knows, and so does my mum. my mum thinks ive stopped and im better, happy, but im not. my friend knows i havent been able to stop. at first she tryed to help, and i stopped for a while, but it all started again. and shes given up on trying to help me, she said that obviously what i do is out of her hands now but she said i need help. i feel like ive let her down, and she doesnt really like to talk about me siing. it has always been a touchy subject for us. the first time i did it. i didnt intend to tell her cause a few days after she said her mum, who has had depression for 10 years, was drunk and ended up injuring herself. and this was on the same night i did. my friend was upset about her mum, and i felt so ashamed. i eventually told her. and it stopped for a while, and then started again. she was so angry and upset. she told her mum and her sister that i si. and her mum tried to help me, but now im getting no help. i think if i went to my friends place her mum would ask about it, and i know she doesnt know about my recent si’s. but my friend has never invited me over since. ive let so many people down. i dont know who to tell, who can actually help me. im losing my best friend over this. and i would never be able to cope with it cause i have experienced a time when we werent friends. it was the lowest i have been. i want to get better, need to get better. i keep thinking i shouldnt post this. ive never done this before. i don’t know if it will help or not. but im scared of what i will do.
im new to this site and i didnt know if i should post anything but i did or at least i tried idk if it worked but i know exacly what ur going through and im here if u ever need to talk
well i think you’re pretty brave for telling your best friend. I’m too scared to tell anyone. Anyways if that person is your real best friend they’ll pull through in the end. maybe they’re just confused on how to help you. or maybe they’re just as scared as you are trying to think of ways they can help you. no matter what though, they shouldn’t be mad at you. a best friend is supposed to love you no matter what