Hi, I am new to this. I am not new to si but I have been to afraid to go on any blogs. I have been siing for awhile. At first is was not too bad, but as time went on it got worse. I do not really know what to do. On some days I do not care and will just si, but on others I am really convinced that I can overcome this. My parents know, they were really upset when they found out. My sister also knows. One thing that gets me upset and hurts me alot is that my sister has never mentioned it to me, but I know she knows. Does she just not care? Or do you think the idea scares her? I know siing is a hard concept for others to grasp.I lie to my entire family and tell them I have not done it in a very long time. They just think it passed and I have overcome that period of time in my life. I really wanted to si the other night but i did not. It took alot but I kept myself from doing it. I do not get it, some nights I am able to keep myself from it but on others I am not. A few nights ago i injured. Then I end up getting really upset with myself. It is just so hard. I am just not sure stopping is worth it anymore. It takes to much effort that I just don’t seem to have…
i know how you feel about your sister, my sister knew for a while that i SIed and she never said anything. i think your sister is probably is just scared and doesn’t know how to approach you, because that’s what the case was with my sister. and for stopping, it’s a really hard struggle and it takes time, you are going to slip up a few times. you need to find that concrete motivation, whether it be a person or a dream or whatever, there is something that will make you want to stop more than anything, and it will make you strong enough, because i know you are. we can all overcome this. if you need to talk, feel free to email me at dumdiddly311@yahoo.com
i know how it feels too. i just revealed to a teacher that i am siing. now my parents know and some other ppl but my twin sister still doesn’t. i am afraid to tell her in a sense. mainly because i tend to try to protect her. however, the other night i got into a fight with my uncle and grandmother and ended up screaming out loud “look at how this is affecting me i am siing.” neither said anything about it which caused me to become even more upset because they won’t acknowledge it. even my mother doesn’t acknowledge it she only asked em the night i got home from school when she got the phone call if i was ok. i still don’t know how to talk about it with them but then again i have never been able to actually talk to my family. however i am fortunate enough to have a large secondary family outside of them who i can easily talk to.
I really want to talk to my sister about it. I do not know how to come about the subject. I think it would help me if she was here for me and really knew what it was about. I have my bestfriend but sometimes i think having my sister in my own house would be so much better. Have you ever thought about how you would tell your twin? Im not sure how to bring it up. Im kind of afraid. Have your parents done anything else? I know when my mom first found out, she did not even talk to me right away. She asked about me siing a few weeks after. I do not understand why she waited so long to ask. It makes me feel like i do not even count, like it was something she swept under a rug and left it to be dealt with at a time best for her, not at a time when i needed help.
my mom hasn’t done anything else. all she did was the first few days ask if i was ok. and no i haven’t thought of how to bring it up to my twin though she has noticed soem of my actions so i had to promise to tell her when we graduate and i made her promise nto to ask about how i am acting at this time. i just don’t feel ready to tell her because knowing her and the mind she has she will have a lot of questions. atleast for now i have over 3 years before i ahve to reveal it. unless of course she forgets. however i know one day i will tell her. i just don’t like facing my only family when it has something to do about a personal problem of mine. i don’t know why but we have never been close…..well not as close as a family should be…if you find a way to tell your sister pls let me know it might work with my twin…good luck!