Hi, I am new to this. I am not new to si but I have been to afraid to go on any blogs. I have been siing for awhile. At first is was not too bad, but as time went on it got worse. I do not really know what to do. On some days I do not care and will just si, but on others I am really convinced that I can overcome this. My parents know, they were really upset when they found out. My sister also knows. One thing that gets me upset and hurts me alot is that my sister has never mentioned it to me, but I know she knows. Does she just not care? Or do you think the idea scares her? I know siing is a hard concept for others to grasp.I lie to my entire family and tell them I have not done it in a very long time. They just think it passed and I have overcome that period of time in my life.  I really wanted to si the other night but i did not. It took alot but I kept myself from doing it. I do not get it, some nights I am able to keep myself from it but on others I am not. A few nights ago i injured. Then I end up getting really upset with myself. It is just so hard. I am just not sure stopping is worth it anymore. It takes to much effort that I just don’t seem to have…