A few days ago, a situation ocurred where I SIed too much, and I had never felt that way before. I was so angry and frustrated and just sick of it. I had been thinking about SI for days and finally..everything just added up and made me do it. I had to tell my parents. My dad was angry, which made me kinda mad, because he really doesn’t understand. I guess I’m ruining the family..and like..my family is soo scared that I’m going to end it, but I write and have been going to therapy for a few months, and I think I’m getting better. I wish they could see it. Sorry for being so bland, I just don’t know exactly how to go into detail and I don’t want to get really upset right now, but is there any advice on how to heal with my family, instead of just healing myself and learning alternatives instead of SI.? I don’t want them to be blinded, I don’t want them to think I’m going to end it. I promised them that I would not hurt myself again and this time, I really won’t..because I don’t want to disappoint them, I want them to be happy so that I can too. how do I make them see what they don’t one-hundred percent believe when they can’t trust me anymore?
I’m so confused and scared, but I made a promise, and I’m really going to keep it. I just need a little more help on the way to completeness..you know..