A few days ago, a situation ocurred where I SIed too much, and I had never felt that way before. I was so angry and frustrated and just sick of it. I had been thinking about SI for days and finally..everything just added up and made me do it. I had to tell my parents. My dad was angry, which made me kinda mad, because he really doesn’t understand. I guess I’m ruining the family..and like..my family is soo scared that I’m going to end it, but I write and have been going to therapy for a few months, and I think I’m getting better. I wish they could see it. Sorry for being so bland, I just don’t know exactly how to go into detail and I don’t want to get really upset right now, but is there any advice on how to heal with my family, instead of just healing myself and learning alternatives instead of SI.? I don’t want them to be blinded, I don’t want them to think I’m going to end it. I promised them that I would not hurt myself again and this time, I really won’t..because I don’t want to disappoint them, I want them to be happy so that I can too. how do I make them see what they don’t one-hundred percent believe when they can’t trust me anymore?
I’m so confused and scared, but I made a promise, and I’m really going to keep it. I just need a little more help on the way to completeness..you know..
congrats on telling your parents. that’s the first step to getting better. i’ve been SIing for about 7 months and i still haven’t told anyone. 🙁
firstly, sometimes you need to think of yourself before others. instead of making sure your family is happy, make sure you are happy. if you only worry about pleasing your parents, everything will build up and you may begin SIing more for feeling bad for letting down you parents. you need to let them know why you SI and explain that it’s not something you can just stop. if they understand how hard it is they most likely will change their views.
then again, only you know how you family will react. i can only offer suggestions. if you ever need to talk or just vent i’m here to listen. even though i don’t actually know you, i want to help. just email me at jheartsconverse@aim.com.