I almost did it again, really bad this time. Early n the mnrning of new years day. I was raped n my own appartment! Only 2 things kept me from it, first i didnt have any sharps (they were already confiscated) and second a really good frnd of mine came from out of town and got me so i would feel safe. But im still stressed by the way everyones acting, like im not an adult and i cant leave town 4 the weekend without permission. I mean i let everyone no where i was going. Also in regards 2 the rape, everyone is blaming me 4 letting it happen as tho i dont already blame my self. That is everyone besides my boyfriend, wgo just brushed it off like it was nothing. All of this has got me really wanting 2 si, and it doesnt help that everyone expects me 2 anyway.