I almost did it again, really bad this time. Early n the mnrning of new years day. I was raped n my own appartment! Only 2 things kept me from it, first i didnt have any sharps (they were already confiscated) and second a really good frnd of mine came from out of town and got me so i would feel safe. But im still stressed by the way everyones acting, like im not an adult and i cant leave town 4 the weekend without permission. I mean i let everyone no where i was going. Also in regards 2 the rape, everyone is blaming me 4 letting it happen as tho i dont already blame my self. That is everyone besides my boyfriend, wgo just brushed it off like it was nothing. All of this has got me really wanting 2 si, and it doesnt help that everyone expects me 2 anyway.
If you said “no”, it was rape — as simple as that. Anyone who says something different is just being ignorant. Please reach out and get help for your rape. You deserve help for this and there is help available. There are many toll-free numbers you can call and if you did make it to the hospital, then they will have the rape kit evidence too against this terrible man.
Address the rape asap, which will then allow you the extra energy to concentrate on not hurting yourself.