i did it again last night. but this time my friend (one who knew) caught me. i was just so upset about something, i couldn’t help it. but i did something i haven’t done in a while. i only ever do that when its really really bad. and i’m not proud of myself for getting back to that place where i had avoided for so long. and now i’m at one of my lowest points. i thikn i may be clinically depressed, i get depressed randomly and for absolutely no reason. i just really don’t know what to do any more. i guess more than anything, i want to let out what i’m feeling. that’s all