Well!  Today and every year around this time really blows for me.  I don’t care too much for the holiday’s and it doesn’t help that the weather outside gets colder and the nights come too soon.  I’ve been feeling lost and the urges and thoughts were getting stronger.  I keep thinking that everytime I think I’m on track with everything because I been self-Injurying in more than one way.   I do feel the pain that both of these things are doing to me and yet I’m doing it so I don’t feel other things that are going on in my life.  I really do feel like I’m at my lowest so if anyone could help me out and make suggestion on both fronts it would be well appreciated.  Just in case you want to get me through my e-mail here it is: denny666@verizon.net  Again Thanks!