Well! Today and every year around this time really blows for me. I don’t care too much for the holiday’s and it doesn’t help that the weather outside gets colder and the nights come too soon. I’ve been feeling lost and the urges and thoughts were getting stronger. I keep thinking that everytime I think I’m on track with everything because I been self-Injurying in more than one way. I do feel the pain that both of these things are doing to me and yet I’m doing it so I don’t feel other things that are going on in my life. I really do feel like I’m at my lowest so if anyone could help me out and make suggestion on both fronts it would be well appreciated. Just in case you want to get me through my e-mail here it is: denny666@verizon.net Again Thanks!
the biggest thing to remember, for me at least, is to not hate yourself for succumbing to si. i sometimes beat myself up for it and that just makes it worse. also, i listen to music about si (the way she feels by between the trees) because its an inspiring song that gives me an emotional release when you listen to it. my therapist has been making me write as well, and at first i hated it, but she made me start when i was in one of my lowest points, just after an er visit, and its helped SO much. i write and write and write and the emotions get out and sometimes i even figure out whats going on in my head. so yeah. if you need someone to talk to email me…emmadixon12@gmail.com
i hope that helps you.