I have this big fear in becoming just like my mom. See she is not the person that you would want to be as your role model, unless you want to destroy your life. She has done some crazy things like beat on her kids, like me. I don’t want to be like her because she uses drugs, and I have tried drugs.  She pops pills and abuses them, I pop pills and abuse them for the sake of harming myself.  I don’t want to be like that, I want to live and be happy, and to make others happy, and I can’t do that if I’m run down like my mother is. You know that I have been through so much pain and suffering, I really don’t see how I am still on this earth.

Is their someone out their that can relate to what I am going through?