I have this big fear in becoming just like my mom. See she is not the person that you would want to be as your role model, unless you want to destroy your life. She has done some crazy things like beat on her kids, like me. I don’t want to be like her because she uses drugs, and I have tried drugs. She pops pills and abuses them, I pop pills and abuse them for the sake of harming myself. I don’t want to be like that, I want to live and be happy, and to make others happy, and I can’t do that if I’m run down like my mother is. You know that I have been through so much pain and suffering, I really don’t see how I am still on this earth.
Is their someone out their that can relate to what I am going through?
i cant relate to what you are going through, and i know it is tuff. if you are suffering alot maybe you should go to the police about it, or maybe just someone you can trust. because it makes you seem stronger if you go to them first. if you ever need to talk, im here 2 listen. calchoir14@aim.com
I can also relate to what you’re going through in one way or another. Find a alternative besides drugs. a lot of times when i SI, I know that im thinking about the moment..instead of the future. How will i feel..3 hours from now..a day..a week..a year. The moment might not even be worth it anymore. I don’t know anything about your mom really, and how she started..but if you don’t want to end up like her, then live for the future and not for the moment.
find alternatives and think of consequences.
compare::
like..”if i do drugs +& beat on my kids then..”
then what??
compare that to..”if i write out how i feel and listen to music when im angry then..”
then what??..you will be in control. =]
good luck.
i know you can be a good person. just writing about it on here is a good step.
xoxo