Have you ever had the feeling that no one cares about you, that you are the only person in the world that is going through a situation? Well at this moment I feel like that. I say this because I have a problem in my house hold dealing with my mom. When I turned 18 I moved out, and I did that because I was getting beat on, verbal abuse was caring on, and my emotions were getting stepped on. I didn’t know what to do, I had no hope. That’s how bad it was. Getting back to the subject, the worse moment that I had was when I was on the phone with my mom, and I was checking up on her, because I miss her, but then she got to telling me that she hates me and she wants nothing to do with me. She even told me that Im not apart of her family anymore, and wait there’s more…. She told me when she dies, for me not show up to her funeral. Do you know how that feels coming from the person that birth you into this world, the person that raised you, who provided for you, the person that loves you. Well I do and it hurts deeply, more than words can say. I thought about S. I. when I herd that, luckly I had nothing to do it with or I would of. I’m worth nothing and I mean nothing in this world, in fact I’m another statistic in this world along with being another human being. Man what should I do?
Thank you so much for blogging this. Im in tears right now. im srry. you have no idea how happy i am to see someone else understand this situation. Ive been dealing with the same thing my whole life, well ever since my paretns divorced when i was about a couple months old. All my mom ever does is tell me how much of a mistake i was and how she wishes i was never born because all i do is complicate things for her. So she does everything to make my life hell. She use to say things to me that i never use to believe, but once you hear it over and over, you start to think that they are true. My self confidence is for crap now. She and this guy have been dating/ingaged for about 12 years now and now they are splitting up and she turned to the bottle, which is taring apart everyone even more. She gets abusive verbaly and phyically and then you have to lie to cover things up. It makes life hell.
I understand where you are coming from, caring about her. I care for my mom just as well. I mean im still in high school (thank god im almost done with it) and my mom will never ever kno what college i go to or where im applying to or anything. Because after a night of hell, she always says shes sorry and that it will never happen gain, untill the next day.
My advice to you, and im trying really hard to put this with out being mean because hun, that is not what im trying to do. But why not try not talking to your mom for a while, and let her come to you. It may be w while, but see what happens. And if she doesnt call you, please dont take this the wrong way, but if your mom is anything like mine, your life will be alot easier and less stressful and less of a heart ache with out her. It her loss because you are her daughter, and from reading this you sound like a pretty amazing chick that has her head on straight. Sounds like you turned out pretty good.
Your hopes and dreams wont be accomplished if shes belittling you and saying the things that she does. We only have one life, so make the best of it. Dont live life the way you have been living it, hell shouldnt be on earth, and you shouldnt have to deal with it.
IDK if your religious or not, im not all that much really but prayer helps, and ill be praying for you 🙂
keep your head up high and remeber, ur an amazing person, you deserve respect, and not to have lived life like that, and dont let anyone EVER tell you otherwise
i know how you feel, the love from your mother is the strongest love ever! but this is what i tell everyone dont start S.I because just like me you will get addicted and want to do it for the stupidest of things. Try talking to your mom, about how you feel, maybe talk to a counsiler and have a moment when your mom and you can talk to a counsiler, this might sound stupid. But counsling helped my family get closer. i’m here if u need to talk . calchoir14@aim.com
I cannot even begin to imagine how you feel. As sitting-in-the-corner said maybe if you tried therapy that would help. *Hugs*