I SI’d today for the first time in almost two months and i feel awful about it. But at the same time i want to do it again. My mom broke up with her boyfriend (who i hate) a few months ago, but got back together with him a few weeks ago. I am just so upset right now. I saw them together earlier and thats when i SI’d now they are sitting together and i want to si again. Why do i keep doing this to myself?