I SI’d today for the first time in almost two months and i feel awful about it.  But at the same time i want to do it again.  My mom broke up with her boyfriend (who i hate) a few months ago, but got back together with him a few weeks ago.  I am just so upset right now.  I saw them together earlier and thats when i SI’d now they are sitting together and i want to si again.  Why do i keep doing this to myself?