I don’t know what to do. I’m in college and didn’t make it to SAFE yet. I hope that somehow I can go next summer over break. Oh how that seems so far away. I’m just scared that things won’t work out i.e. parent’s (they control my $) , insurance company paying, yada yada. How do you resist the urges? How are you suppose to stop on your own? I’ve been self injure free for three months and nine days. Man o man this hasn’t been easy, nor has it become any easier. Everyday I struggle with the urges. What will happen if I give into them? That’s a question I’d rather not know the answer to. Writing in a journal used to help and I talk to my therapist about this. That just doesn’t seem like enough anymore. I got the workbook understanding self injury. Didn’t help much. Ehh.. what do I do? The thing that scares me the most is that I’m not tight knit with my family and the holidays are coming up. I see my t again the third week of January Lordy that’s a long time away. I just wish that there was a way for me to go to SAFE. That’s my biggest fear that something will keep me from going.
Hi this is Leona, I understand where you are comming from, I think about S.I. everyday, and the last time I did it was 2 weeks ago. Although Im not in college yet, which I will be next year, Im scared of the possible out comes, like what will happen, are things going to get better. Right now at this moment, I hate my life, I feel that I have nothing to live for. All that i’ve been through is killing me mentaly, and hurting me emotionally. I just don’t know what to do, because sometimes I really want to give up!!!!:(
For me, and a friend of mine because he and i both started doing this we shouldnt have been doing around the same time. I myself started drawing, cracked up hard rock/metal (usually christian rock because it doesnt talk about the bad things. I like it because wen i listened to it i didnt want to injure more) and drew for hours. Writting didnt work for me because i started injuring because of past events, and writting made me relive everything. If you want, i could email you a ton of stuff i listen to wen i get the urge to SI….
as for my friend, he played piano or gutar (which is another thing i do) or played video games for a while.
Either those ideas or try calling a friend, he and i had a policy that no matter wat time it was, no matter when, we could call each other if we needed it.
Email me if u ever need anything: tweezy.fairy@live.com
Hey stuck, there is NEVER! a good time to go to “rehab” SAFE included.You mentioned you are in college have you had the opportunity to check out the college’s health center? They may offer counseling or provide a list of therapists outside of school. Assuming you can get to a counselor what about buying THE book, Bodily Harm. Read it yourself first and make sure you are cool with the concepts in the book. Then take the book to your as yet counselor. The 2nd half of the book IS the SAFE program laid out in a way you could it from “home.” Or even get the book and familiarize yourself with it over the Spring Semester and with tons of time in between you could call SAFE 1-800-dontcut and leave a message, no one ever answers that phone, feeling antsy call the number and listen to the message. If you really feel SAFE is a good fit don’t hesitate to call so they can begin the process aka paperwork. The earlier you decide SAFE would be a good fit, there could be the possibility of accomodation in your time constraints. So, that was a lot to swallow, but it gives you a couple threads to follow. ari.mastro@gmail.com
Well I couldn’t say anything much better than Ari said above! Great ideas Ari. But I had to add – that we do answer the 800 DONTCUT (366.8288) information line live from generally from 8:00 a.m. – 4:00 p.m. (Central time) Monday – Friday. We will have adjusted hours over the upcoming holidays – but we are here and do answer now. Ari is right – it did used to be a voicemail all the time, that’s a change we’re excited has happened over the past year or so :-). It’s great to see all the positive support you all give to each other here!