I really didn’t want to go to school today. I wanted to fake sick and just stay home because i knew that it was going to b bad. Some guy that assaulted me told all of his friends that i was easy and did anything and everything that he wanted me to, and i didn’t want to face today. But know i am here and all people do is whisper behind my back. Even my closest “friends”. I changed who i was and who i wanted to become and just like that he took it all away. And now everything has changed. I’m like the center of attention for everyone and i don’t want to b. and going to a small school everyone knows about everything.
That absolutely sucks. I hate that he got away with this, and that your school is basically saying it’s okay. He should be punished for what he did, not you. The important thing here is you and your well being. Try to remind yourself that who you are is not defined by what he did or what they think. Your identity, your goals, hold onto them. Don’t let him take away your progress or who you have become. You found the strength to face today, and that’s incredible. I don’t think I would have the courage to do what you have done. Are you getting all the help you should, in terms of physical and mental health? Is there someone you can talk to, like a counselor, teacher or a trusted friend? This isn’t something you should go through alone.
Something you might be interested in is taking a self defense class. I took one, and it changed my life. It made me feel like I have control, and was really empowering. The class I took was Impact, the website is http://www.impactpersonalsafety.com/. They’re in CA, but they recommend programs in other places as well. You might find it helpful.
If you ever just need someone to talk to, my email is lnkellman1@hotmail.com. I’m rooting for you,
-Laura
thankx so much..i added u on messenger, so yea thats me. i will definetly email u. i have a teacher i talk to. all my friends just turned their backs. guess u find out who ur real friends are huh?? i havent even told my parents about it. i cant tell them. and it makes it that much harder. my parents would say the same things he said aobut me, but only saying that i wanted it and that i was the one trying to do everything and that i was making the whole thing up.. but idk wat hurts the most is the fact my best friend gave me the cold shoulder. my best friend. he said he couldnt be there because it would drag him down too. but yet isnt this the time wen people need their friends the most?? its so hard to handle all of this.
I think you might be surprised by your parents. I know a lot of times I’ve expected anger from them, and gotten a much more supportive reaction. They love you, and they’ll believe you over some jerk. I think they would want to be there to help you right now. And a nice thing about family is they’re always there, even when your friends aren’t . I can’t believe that everyone at your school just believes him, and could be like that. It makes me so angry. I’m amazed you can deal with them without screaming.
I’m pretty bad with technology, so I’m not sure I have messenger, but I check my email pretty frequently.
Please tell and confide in an adult about your assault. Go to a crisis center or tell someone you trust… because you shouldn’t have to deal with this type of stuff at school — the school should suspend the student who did it or at least make him stop talking. What he did to you was a crime, so please fight back and get help.
i did tell someone about what happened, but they are putting it as a missunderstanding and that i lead him on…