This time of year is hard for many people, especially if we have memories of self-injury relating to the holidays. I know I’m one of those people and last year I spent my holiday “recovering”… which was not only embarrassing, but painful. It brought me shame because I wasn’t able to finish presents I had started and the presents were made using one of my coping mechanisms, which is crochet. It was terrible and I don’t want it to happen again — so that is why I’m talking about.
I want to brainstorm out loud on here and hopefully give others a place to do the same. How do you plan to stay safe over the holidays?
I’m going to…
– write more
– take advantage of my cell phone and call/ text people whenever I need to
– let myself cry
– talk about some of the scarier memories I have of this time of year, especially the memories of last year and work through the memories as they come up… therefore giving them less power over me
– continue to wear my silly crochetted Santa cap when I work, just because it makes me feel happy
To tell you the truth I have no idea of how I’m getting through them at this point. I never think much of the holiday’s except that it’s just another day. Can’t make any plans because here of lately every time I plan something I never really go through with it so as they say we’ll just have to see where the cards fall.
really i just plan to remember to love myself. when ever i want to si, i’ll talk to God and ask Him for help. so far this has worked pretty well.