I just don’t understand why it all has to be so hard. I struggle with the self injury everyday. i thought i had it under control, but it is so out of control. the more i try to control it, the more out of control it gets. I feel desperate. as i try to deal with life the only resolve i find is in injuring. i know the books and i understand the concepts of taking care of myself but i don’t care about me, i don’t feel that i deserve to feel any better and that all i deserve is the self abuse. feeling pretty alone today
i know the feeling of alone… i can be in a group – even with my entire family – talking the talk, walking the walk, smiling that smile they’ve all waited so long for – and still feel so alone. sometimes i even feel alone when lying in the arms of my lover.
i may not know you, but you deserve better. everyone does. you must love yourself before you’ll find happiness… i found it once… it was beautiful… dunno how or why i lost it…
i hope you feel better and know that you are NOT alone in your feelings… if you ever want/need to talk, i could use someone who understands as well
Me
rc_4_freedom@live.com
yeah i totally relate to that alone feeling. last week i went out with a group of my best friends, yet i still felt uncomfortable. im not sure if i isolate myself, or if the loneliness is inevitable. just remember you arent alone. i listen to music sometimes to remind me other people have been through this. i wish there was like injury support groups…it would really help to talk to people who understand. idk. but really, remember you arent alone.