The Wants and unbearable Feelings. Why do I feel so helpless and alone with these feelings I sit with every day and night. The flashbacks have returned. I feel like I being haunted by my past, looking for that comfort of wanting some relieve. I know that SIing is not the answer, but the problems are there and I am attracted to those high feelings. I don’t want to be in this position again, I did so well for years and the thoughts are there again. But I’m trying hard to kept it simple right now. I know the logs are the best thing for me at this point.