The Wants and unbearable Feelings.  Why do I feel so helpless and alone with these feelings I sit with every day and night.  The flashbacks have returned.  I feel like I being haunted by my past, looking for that comfort of wanting some relieve.  I know that SIing is not the answer, but the problems are there and I am attracted to those high feelings.  I don’t want to be in this position again,  I did so well for years and the thoughts are there again.  But I’m trying hard to kept it simple right now.  I know the logs are the best thing for me at this point.