unlike many people on this site, i’ve never been the “ugly, fat girl that nobody likes” and it kind of makes me feel weird; i’m in a very good place in my life, but i just can’t stop SI. My very good friend who SI has many family roblems, but i don’t. i used to, but my life is stable right now [besides my SI], and i can’t stop wondering why i can’t stop SI if i’m not in a bad place. My boyfriend is trying to help me, and he pleads with me not to SI, but even thinking of him sometimes doesn’t work. I slipped up a few nights ago, and tonight, and i don’t know what to do. One of my friends said i shouldn’t tell my boyfriend; i won’t be seeing him in a place where he could see my SI until next friday. But i’m conflicted; will that make him angry? I would usually tell him just because i thought it was the right thing to do, i never even thought of not telling him. I was doing really good too, i hadn’t SI in a few weeks, and now i feel as if i’m right where i started. I try almost everything to get my mind off SI, to stop myself, but sometimes it just doesn’t work. I want this to end, i hate hurting my boyfriend and friend, but i don’t know how to stop. Nothing seems to work for me.