I haven’t been to therapy in over a month. I was seeing someone at school, but she sucks at scheduling, so she kept failing to schedule me, even when I wanted to see her. I’m in the process of switching counselors, but even there, I haven’t heard back yet. It’s really frustrating, because I know how important therapy is for me, and I want to be there, and to get help, and I can’t. I haven’t been handling it too well, honestly. I’ve been very passive aggressive about it. I haven’t hurt myself in seven months (a week before going to SAFE), but I skipped five of the same class in a row, hoping that the professor would send out an academic performance report, which would be CCed to counseling services. Since that hasn’t happened, I’m starting to wonder if I’ll have to do something drastic to keep from falling through the cracks.
It’s so stupid. I learned all of this stuff at SAFE about how to ask for help in a productive and healthy matter, and how to take control of my life, and I’m just throwing it away, thinking about how I need to hurt myself to get anyone’s attention and make them realize that I don’t have everything under control. But what kind of help am I looking for? Whatever happens, I’m going to have to be the one to do the work. So what’s the point of trying to beg for help from people who can’t really give me any more than I can give myself at this point?
How about just acting out in one of your classes that might get their attention I know it’s not exactly heathy, but at least you’re get something. At least you won’t be hurting yourself either that is the most important thing we all are concern about the SIing part.
Um…I’m not sure I want to get the attention of other students. Professors, maybe. Counseling, absolutely. But other students?
Anyway, the one class I was hoping to get an academic progress report (APR) from- I ran into the professor today, after skipping my sixth of his class in a row, and he didn’t seem mad at me…I did ask to meet with him tomorrow during his office hours. I also left a message with counseling services, telling them to call me, and I’ve got a meeting set up with my house prefect, who can force them to see me if they don’t follow through.
I’m just tired of having to be in direct crisis to be taken seriously. I’m not a suicide risk. I’m not at risk of hurting myself again. But I’m not ok, and I still need help.
I’m new to this group. I’ve been a self-injurer for a couple of years now, & at 47 (48 in Jan) I’m finally seeing a psychologist. I started seeing him in June. He’s great. He has told me I’m normal & I got frustrated & I injure…it’s just that I get SO frustrated sometimes that I sometimes lose control & but I want to reduce the times I do this but don’t know how. I’m a Certified Medical Assistant so you’d think I’d know what to do, but I need help,someone who’s also an injurer. Thanks for listening.