Of course, It’s a happy day and everyone is jittery and loving, but me, I’m hating myself. I had to find something to wear and my closet is a bit sad. So anything I want to wear I have to study to make sure it’s not too much. So I look in the mirror and of course I’m disguisted with what I see and started crying like a baby. Every since I started SI’ing, my self-esteem has been so low. This really sucks because now I get to deal with my family and take care of my cousins because I’m the middle kid who no one thinks I’m worth anything. I have to idea what to do about this.