The holidays are coming up and the past few years they have been really hard for me. My parents divorced a year and a half ago and last year i lost two of my grandparents. Im really worried that i will mess things up because of the holidays. I have been SI free for almost a month now and while that might not seem long to some people, that is a huge improvement for me. I know that SI is a choice, but sometimes i think like i HAVE to do it. Im really worried that everything that i have worked for will unravel during the holidays.