I haven’t SIed for just a couple months, it does feel like longer, and just recently I’ve thought about it a little bit more. I don’t know if i’ll be allowed to play on the rugby team, i lost my best friend over a lie someone spread, my ex-gf and i live together and things are so up and down with her it’s ridiculous. i can’t get out of the lease until june unless i find someone else and it’s very tough. things are very down right now with her too. i resisted the urge my lowest night last week. i really think that reading everything posted on here has helped me out a lot. i went onto this website to start doing research and i’ve come out learning a lot about this community but also a lot about myself and i feel i’ve grown from this experience. i’m still sending out surveys if anyone is interested in helping me out. just email me, firstname.lastname@example.org.