I have been really struggling lately with the desire to stay SAFE!! It sucks as it has been on my mind a lot these past few days. I came really close to hurting myself yesterday and had the instrument in my hand. It was very very scary for me…and then  I decided that I did not want to go back to the way things were before I went to the SAFE program. I have worked hard to get my two months so far and do NOT want to throw it all away!!! I know that I am making better choices for myself, but why does it all feel so hard??? Some days I am not so sure that I can live without SI. Anyway…I send everyone and great big warm Canadian hug and hope to hear from anyone soon!! thanks!!!!  Can-a-d-a