I hate how 1 stupid phone call can ruin or seem to ruin so much. This morning my counselors office called to inform me I have no visits left this year and best thing would prob be to call back Jan. I wanted to cry. I have been working with my counselor very closely since being out of the program. I don’t know what to do now. I will be talking to my counselor sometime next week and see what she thinks.
There are so many negative thoughts they are overwhelming me, I find myself in tears often(which is VERY unlike me). I am looking at my list of alternatives but..I feel so depressed I don’t want to do any of them…
You may not realize it at this point, but those list of alternatives may be your only saving grace to get you through these rough times. Don’t give up I know being depressed doesn’t help either and even though crying is not like you maybe that’s your subconscience way of getting you through this ( In other words go with the flow). Why don’t you make a list of those negative thoughts and challenge them and at that moment write down why you’re having it and where it came from just to get it out of your system and see if you can look past it. If there is any other way I can help my e-mail address is : denny666@verizon.net In case you’re wondering I graduated the S.A.F.E. I’ve already relapse, but I’m trying to move pass everything and just concentrate on round two because there is always another one around the corner to keep us fighting the good fight.
You CAN do it!!! I did not have a lot of support after leaving the program, and I know it is sooo hard. But I do believe you can do it. I graduated from SAFE 7 years ago next month. You can do it.
I think what your counseling office did was icky, they should have informed you before now so that you could ration your benefits! It is possible that your insurance company may approve extra days if you are at risk of hospitalization. It’s also worth calling the counseling office and explaining your situation and see if they can either contact your insurance company about approving extra days or offer you a sliding scale fee. I would also encourage you to see if their are any local support groups which you can attend for support (such as DBSA, ANAD, etc).
Good luck, and take care.
Britt…I know you are strong enough to do this!!! I believe in you girlfriend!!! Keep going and NEVER GIVE UP!! Us evil twins have to stick together right?? I know we are far away from each other but we are always together in our hearts and spirits!! I love you and will talk soon!! Can-a-d-a