I know I probably should get my logs out and should log away but there are only a certain amount I can do a day.  At least that is my thinking.  I really haven’t been out of the program for that long and know what would happen if I do SI so I will probably log in a while or sit with my feelings or something or color or find something to do with my hands.  Play with silly puddy, play with play doh, color, whatever, but I am looking at things and thinking why shouldn’t I SI.  I am home alone for the first time since I have come back and this is really tempting for me so I don’t know what to do.